Brrrrhhhhh bed weather!

No, the weather report says it is not a storm. It is just a tropical depression.
Oh well, I am a bit sad over my laundry.
Gimini Cricket was whispering to me, bring them in already before we left at 1130 am.
I did, but not all of it.
So, the rain, drenched the few items I left out on the clothes line.
I have to do them again.
And….it is confirmed, my under- the- kitchen- sink- cabinet - leak, is rain/drain related….I almost slipped over the ankle deep water puddle in my dinning area, which was already reaching under the Berlin wall bamboo bench I have dividing the sala and the dinning area.
My landlord will really hear from me tomorrow.
I claim, calmness of spirit and attitude.
Imagine…what if I broke my neck or my head.
This is a result of poor planning and plumbing.
I was soaked by the rain, was in a hurry to take a pee, the house was semi dark, it was still 430pm but with all the dark rain clouds the afternoon light was not sufficient for me to see the state of my apartment...I just felt water lapping into my blue ballet flats and almost made a split , my legs going opposite directions.
Oh me Oh my. Moo Mai.

Anyway, as to the good stuff for today.

Our Sunday adventure with Marina was not marred by the heavy downpour. On the contrary, we enjoyed riding the angel to the rescue tricycle who saved us from catching Pneumonia along JP.Rizal. There was a monster traffic in the other side of Makati with lots of flooding..thus, no taxi in sight.

So, we enjoyed the speed boat effect it had while our knight and shinning armor & stead waded the knee deep inner streets bringing us to catch our 330pm children’s mass across the Pasig river in San Roque church, Mandaluyong City.

The gospel for today focused on the promise made by our Savior when we pray: “Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and it shall be opened to you.”

Lord knows, what I am banging on His doors for. It is actually for my daughter. Her heartfelt wishes are so…inspiring. I am just the good fairy, trying to aid/facilitate it’s processing.

The ball is in your court now Lord. Take over.

Ice cold Coke please!!!

I feel so exhausted. Mag coke muna tayo!

I started the day so early. This was going to be a full day. Many errands to do plus a playtime visit by my daughter to her friends in the nearby California Gardens Village by mid afternoon.

Unfortunately, the appointment supposedly right after that was a bit of a challenge. She kept on changing and changing the time.

Good thing everything fell into place. But I was a bit stressed out already. The most important errand had to be postponed hopefully for tomorrow or Monday.

I was so happy to see my daughter and her friend, play to their hearts content. Running and running around as if their energy was limitless. How I envy that. A wise man once noted…all that energy lost in youth….So true so true… Here you are running after time, and your energy level abandons you when you still need more. Running on fumes is not a good idea at all.

Anyway, the day was capped with my daughter getting her favorite pork bar b.q. while I did my grocery shopping. The dessert of Vanilla ice cream from Mini Stop came first.

One thing good came out of this day… seeing my daughter beso beso her friend after their play date. It was so nice to see the two chums really happy for a day well spent in play. Oh, there were petty skirmishes of what game to play next. My daughter wanted to play more of the ball while her buddy wanted more of board games.

Another thing….I surprisingly recalled the complete name of an acquaintance of 15 long years ago in the Robinson’s grocery.

We were both so surprised for my quick recall.

This was usually a common embarrassment I experienced when bumping into friends or acquaintance and having to ask…what their names were.

Hmmmm…..This is good. Very good indeed. These brain cells have regenerated despite the sleepless night.

Till tomorrow then, the body is so bone tired.

I miss my hubby so much and his massages when I am in this exact state. I just reminded him 2 years being apart is the limit. No more after this.

Come to think of it…If I get pregnant during his vacation here…it will mean, I could give birth without him around….Hmmmmm…. me think, this is not good. I hope he could work out an emergency leave of some sort.

Useless anxieties again.

Lord, I offer to you up everything and trust in you for what is best.

Pros and Cons to having another baby

This morning, as our morning routine with my daughter/student, we check the book of Proverbs for our memory verse.

I then transfer it onto a small white board for her and me to see visibly in the house during the whole day.

And lo, much to my amazement, I found one of my favorite bible quotes:

“ Trust in the Lord, with all your heart and all your mind, lean not in your own understanding, and He will make straight your paths.”

It was a very clear assurance of the biggest stumbling block to my considering another child—the practical aspects of feeding and schooling him/her. It can rack up a considerable figure if you look at it in the long stretch.

One ( a worry wart) like me, cannot help but feel a bit overwhelmed and anxious.

So…this particular morning’s treasure find, was what I just needed as I attempt to come to a proactive and really….sound decision.

Why does it sound…like it is only I who has to make a decision?

Simply because, My husband and my daughter are really for the affirmative side for a long time now.

2 is to 1 is really something I cannot really overturn, just like that.

Oh by the way…I forgot to mention, I slept like a baby last night.

The rock salt really did the trick.

It glued my eyes really really shut and I woke up…feeling so rested and beautiful. The magic mirror on the wall no longer noted the heavy bags and rings under my eyes.

Yahoo.
Yehey.

So, are we done with the book of Proverb?

No not yet….

My daughter asked me who wrote it.

So, I had to pull out the good ole book again and check.

As, I checked the commentary at the start of the book….I was tickled by another information that has long been forgotten by my always forgetful mind….Proverbs 31 The Ideal Wife.

Oh boy…was this going to be really an interesting ride this morning.

So, I tossed my slippers aside for a moment and curled myself in the worn out leatherette cushioned armchair we have in our sala and read on.

Hmmmm…..

More thoughts pouring into my mind….hmmmm….plentiful to stock up on a lot of commentary blogs….

Whoa!

Wait a minute…the bottom line….You will do anything for the love of your life…your partner, your lover and marathon of life buddy.

My U.P. oblation.

My Adam.

My…Goliath and David…

My Sodom….nah…not that…

This part of my blogging is an off shoot, an influence of reading the Song of Songs…which is quite interesting to note…on the intimacy aspect of husband and wife. It somehow tickled my imagination pink and blushed my cheeks now and then.

Blue, red and all the colors of explosion and wonder and amazement and ohhs and ahhs…

Anyway…

Sodom sounds like a contraceptive device that we once used…but threw away after I became resolute to go the natural way. Abstinence, Calendar/Rhythm or Withdrawal method.

Anything synthetic or with germicides and spermicide, scents and flavors and all the other chemical components really repelled me and gave me bad side effects. Rashes was just one.

I never tried the pill throughout my married life..and have a long list of reasons why not.

Anyway….so far it has worked and I appreciate my husband for being so sensitive to my need for proper breathing space after my first born.

Anyway, 7 years is I guess a long wait.

And, with Divine providence, I will have the right and proper attitude toward it…one with a welcoming and happy spirit.

There are a lot information out there that I have to review and put into practice as we attempt for a boy.

There are suggestions on positioning, deep thrust for proper implantation.

The Y chromosome easily dies…thus it has to meet the X chromosome right away…so for it not to travel much and long, it should be planted at the ….

(I stopped at this point and shared it to via SKYPE to my husband for review)

We ended up laughing when he said…what is next?

And he reminded me of my daughter’s song:

“ ….deep, deep, down down, deep, down in my heart.”


I honestly don’t know the female reproductive organs beyond the external. Have to review more on this.

We just have been recently discussing and googling about the Labia and the Vulva.

Thus..he is reminding me now and then on text that he has to kiss the other lips also and cant’ wait to.

Hahahahahaha.

Ok PG 18 required for the next discussion.

How to have a baby boy?

It is 12:02 am in the digital clock on my computer screen.
I have my rock salt ready.
I have been given tips to put 2-3 grains of rock salt on my tongue to help me catch sleep.
Last night was another tossing and turning session for me.
My daughter was bothered too.
I thought she was sleep talking when she asked me if I can’t sleep.
She hugged me and patted me to sleep.
It was a good thing, we enjoyed a chilly weather.
Very nice for snuggling and cuddling.

I also have my step walker beside me now.
I intend to use it to the count of 75.
So, it will make me so tired and will go flat out to dreamland.

The whole day today…I had to catch snoozes of 5-10 minutes each.
I gave Mari seatwork and she gingerly set the timer and shook me up for lessons.
But early evening tonight, I put on the TV just to pass the time.
Actually a NO NO for weeknights/school nights.
So while we were trying our best to fit into the bamboo bench like peas in a pod….I soaked in the ZZZZZZZZZZZZZs.

So…the tv lulled me to sleep from 8-11pm.
I just hope my blogging ritual now will help me sleep.
…and though how much interesting and addicting Facebook is , I will not even dare open a single profile.
Just snap and zap my blog.
That is it.
Nothing else.
Hasta la vista FB.

Tomorrow will be a busy day for me.
Music, Arts and P.E. day for us.

I also have to draft letters for 2 neighbors who asked me for some help.

I have to print some documents for mailing on Saturday.

I also have to search where Davilo or Dovelo St. is in Barangay Sta. Cruz, Makati City.

I long for those days when I hit my head on the pillow and it’s lights off automatically.
I miss those times so terribly.

Ok, perhaps it comes with the territory.

Clock is ticking and the million dollar question is hanging a heavy cloud over me….To be or not to be a mother again?

I will devote the next blogs on the why’s and the why not….and if ever I make a go of it….How to make a baby boy?

I hear that there is a 99.9 % full proof way.

Let us discover the ways together.

Hmmmm…. This is going to be exciting, I bet.

500 WORD ESSAY FOR U.P.

STATEMENT OF PURPOSE AND PLANS IN STUDYING PROFESSIONAL TEACHING FROM UP OPEN UNIVERSITY.

Background

In my mid to late twenties, I was tasked to give short talks on Christian teaching tracts to single young professionals. I thoroughly enjoyed doing these challenges. I became one of the more favored and sought after speakers.

Soon after that, I was seriously considering taking up Education units at the University belt in Manila. My dream was to teach values education to college students. I was of course eyeing the Civil Service test as well as the Teacher Board Exam.

Fate has a way of derailing our well made plans and purposes.

In my early thirties I tied the knot with my 2 year old intimate relationship. As we were about to greet our first born, I was strongly drawn to home schooling our child. Somehow, this yearning never left me.

Reason/Purpose

Again, fate led me to get to know a local home school provider and after 2 years of convincing my husband and daughter, we are now on the 2nd year of home schooling.

My daughter is now on the first grade and each day is quite a challenge…and I am more than willing to take up each hurdle, just so, I can bask in the end of day affirmation I get from my daughter who tells me, this has been a great day mom. Thanks for being my teacher.

So, from a seed of a thought and yearning…the germination process has now begun.

I am now looking forward to the breaking of soil.

To be able to finish this year in home schooling with a much better grasp and practice of teaching tools and techniques. I should have lessened the mistakes and the frustration.

This is the reason why, I am so very happy to have finally learned that UP OPEN UNIVERSITY is here to provide me with this necessary skill and credential to be able to really say with the correct/proper backing/support, that yes, I am equipped to teach. And yes, I can teach my child or any other child/young adult who has the confidence in me to mold and guide them.

PLANS

I do have several plans. My most immediate plan is to continue home schooling my daughter until the end of this school year. Our agreement is to take each year at a time as to assess and re-assess whether we are going to pursue another year to the next.

I do not like to force her so it has to be an agreed undertaking.

My one to two year plan is to put up my own on-line English tutorial classes/school that will target the following countries Brunei, Indonesia, Cambodia and Vietnam.

My long term plan which will be three to five years from now is to put up my own day care/tutorial center in a neighborhood which will provide us with the pioneering edge.

It could be in the local setting or somewhere abroad where my husband’s career beckons.

My BAGS

I just finished reading a news article of a Milo Marathon runner who suffered & died due to multiple organ failture brought about by heatstroke and lapses in proper cooling and hydration support by the organizer.
I offer prayers for his soul and his family.
I hear that there are more reported deaths brought about by this marathon last July 4,2010.
I wanna talk about BAGS.
No, not the kind under my eyes due to lack of sleep.
Or the signature brands that cost an arm and a leg or your soul.

Lella Santiago of July 20,2010 Kerygma Daily Bible Reflection tells us about this BAG OF MIRACLES she recounts and recollects everytime.
B stands for Blessings.
A is for accomplishments and achievements over trials and challenges
G is good deeds for others.

As she journals this, she continually marvels at God's amazing love for her.

Yeah, as they say count your blessings all the time.

I added my own S for sorry to people I have hurt and offering sorry and forgiveness for those who have hurt me.

It makes the travel much much lighter.

So, here is my version of BAGS for today.

BLESSINGS

Roof over my daughter and my head. Although the laundry/cum kitchen area has leaks on the roof...it still has covered us with ample protection from typhoons from Basyang to way back to Ondoy to Milenyo.


The energy and time to have homeschool with my daughter. I just encountered the thought that reminds us that LIFE IS NOT ALL ABOUT WORK/CAREER, things/circumstances may slow us down for us to stop and smell the roses along the way.

Deciding to homeschool my daughter has lessened the stress in my life considerably and I get to hug her anytime of the day and have lunch with her. Something I would not be able to do if I was so busy running after the dough out of the house while I try to climb the ladder or other people as I go up the career plane/floors/levels.

Less is more indeed.

ACCOMPLISHMENTS/ACHIEVEMENTS

First of, I have so far succeeded in not making this blog angst riddled and really a vent of hot steam.

I have achieved the proper balance of rounding off and praying for people and circumstances that disturb my spirit, body and soul.

Got my recommendation letter from a former boss so I can finally file my enrollment with UP OPEN UNIVERSTIY.

GOOD DEED

Hot choco and bread for breakfast with a neighbor who has many times failed /hurt me.

Smiling at people who are not nice. Not cynically but with love in my heart.

Being compassionate and understanding, though difficult, for those XX and OO who have snobbed me in my time of need or request for the recommendation letter.

SORRY

?????

Not sure I have wronged anybody today.

Maybe the jeepney driver I annoyed when we hailed it, then suddenly remembered I forgot something and did not ride....perhaps I annoyed him due to my forgetfullness.

Or perhaps the lady beside us at the adoration chapel who was a bit bothered by my daughter's chat with me. I sshhd her anyway but still the lady gave me this look.

Or the other lady in the other jeepney ride who looked at my daughter's sandals and said to her seatmate," oh those can be bought at only P35 in the market."

I said to myself, maybe the imitation. But this is the real thing, no!

But I caught myself and said....no need for feathers to get ruffled anyway, this Crocs sandals are truly a dime a dozen...besides it was only a gift by my sister and I could not afford it...or if I did, would I even buy it?

Maybe not...

I am not brand conscious anyway....but why was I a bit amused?

hahahaha, perhaps by the obnoxious manner it was referred to within an arms lenght from me.

Hahahahaha....

All in the day's jeepney ride.

Was My Face RED?

Hehehehe....
I discovered my depression was all for naught.
Twas folly.
My posts were being automatically saved in the draft section of my account.
Eureka!
Ok..oh boy, was my face red #1.

My face was red #2nd time today because...I almost lost my cool and patience.
By God's special grace I was able to hold it.
This time of the month, when my monthly period should be dropping by any moment now....my already short fuse...is super super thin.

Anyway....I did not allow whatever the situation to get the better of me and my day.
The goals for the day where achieved.
Though my just treated hair with aloe vera...was back to it's jolly old self and made a hay day plus...the hot weather fizzle and sizzle.....which reminds me of the hot iron plate of burger stoves.....So I was the vision of a grizzle bear sporting a mane ,like punk rockers just coming from an elecric shock with it's guitar.
whew.
Never mind....
It will be settled and smoothened out soon. I just need to continue my hair spa treatment regularly.
Accomplisment #1:
I was able to organize 20% of my clutter.
It made me breath much easier.
Files are now neatly kept.

The kitchen sink leak was miraculously dry today. Hmmmm...what was that all about? Where was it coming from?

For further sleuthing.

But washing the big kitchen rug was a challenge plus the all other small mats.

My back is aching and hopefully will catch my 40 winks easily.

God bless. Good night.
Right on the dot...I stop at 11:58pm.
GREat!
God is good.