Noble November 7,2011
12:20 am
It has been a good day.
Prayers had been answered.
Good neighbors came to the rescue.
First day tutoring a 4 year old girl in English. She is so eager and excited to learn. Her first teacher was my 8 year old. Who by the way, also wants to be a teacher someday. Thanks to my inspiration perhaps.
Marina just came back from a one week sleepover in her grandpa’s place with her cousin Stef. They bonded so much that they did not like to separate after 3 days. So, Marina went to sleepover in their place in Paranaque.
I missed her so much.
Her dad was overly anxious to have her back asap.
I felt it was time to loosen the kite strings a bit.
Hoping that she will be alright this time.
The last time I did...it was not a pleasant experience for me.
By God’s grace we have her back safe and sound.
She also declared she is too tired to go back to her regular school experience. You see, I made arrangements for her to be on a one month visiting student status in a nearby school. I agreed with the condition that she will go back on the 14th to complete 1 month. Her teacher and classmates are asking her to continue till December so she can be part of the Christmas Party.
We will cross the bridge when we get there.
The little one and I have bonded so much without much interruption.
But somehow, she was looking for her elder sister.
Watching her listen to the phone when I called Marina last night was something special. She became so excited and grunted 2 times.
She recognizes her sister’s voice.
Watching her see and adore her sister when she came home today was another special treat. I thank God for being able to give this 2 girls a special experience called SISTERHOOD.
They have very wonderful eyes for each other.
I know the experience Marina had with her cousin Stef will be treasured for a long time. Reading her cousins letter to her tugged at my heartstrings.
Let me cap the night with some reflections on Kerygma bible readings.
Servanthood.
Chastisement.
End time.
As we are about to end another year...I want to focus on thanksgiving.
I will end each blog with praises and cheer for gifts and graces received during the day.
1. Taking a long and restful nap with my 2 beautiful girls.
2. Watching my girls lovingly look at each other.
3. Good food on our table.
4. Roof over our heads.
5. Income of my husband
6. Strength and energy to tutor a 4 year old
7. Good neighbours who saved me from worries and anxieties
8. Nice neighbours with genuine hellos upon meeting along the road
9. Joy of having my baby sleep in my arms
10. Hugs and kisses from my girls and hearing Marina say I miss you mom.
Monday, November 7, 2011
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Keep the Oil Burning
Noble November 6,2011
10:07 pm
After a long time, I stopped to take a much needed pause. I needed to replenish my depleting spiritual reserves. I looked up my daily bible guide and reflections from Kerygma.com.
Keeping the oil burning.
Let me quote some of the lines of Fr Brian Steele:
We must always be vigilant and keep the oil in our lamp burning. Every one of us has a responsibility to keep our torches (faith) lit with the oil (charity). By our good deeds, we will meet the Lord as soon as He arrives and takes us to Himself. The oil is the charity, the love expressed in faith through our actions. It would be a terrible thing to find at the Lord’s coming the door closed on us. Once locked, it cannot be opened. The great shame is that these women were there all along, waiting. It was because of their unprepared resources that they missed out. If only they had the resources, the joy would have been theirs to celebrate. Fr. Brian Steele, MGL
Just recently, I was tested in these areas. Faith and Charity.
I am so well acquainted with the advice to forgive 70 x 7 times. It means, continue forgiving without counting.
Mother Teresa of Calcutta encourages us to give until it hurts.
This is the part that is quite challenging for me. I was put in a situation where giving was already hurting, Admittedly, I gave grudgingly. Why? The item given away was intended for another purpose. The receiver somehow, did not listen to what I was trying to say when she was claiming it. Besides, I felt, I have already given more than enough. I was in a position of want or dire need and the particular object could have given me some form of lease.
As I reflected on the story of the virgins awaiting the bridegroom...I am once again piqued and quite annoyed, I cannot help compare the unprepared virgins to this person. She wanted to appear so in need of help and support from people around her and me in particular..that was not really the case. She was capable of providing for her needs actually and this thing she could very well afford to buy herself or pay in installment.
But no, she wanted me to share it with her.
She even announced it to many so that I would be in a spot and could not do otherwise.
That is were salt was really rubbed so roughly on my aching charitable bone or spirit. I felt, I already had given enough... and yet, I was arm twisted to give more.
I am just so human to feel a bit annoyed , used and abused.
I end my argument and annoyance with the following lines:
8 The foolish ones said to the wise, ‘Give us some of your oil, for our lamps are going out.’ 9 But the wise ones replied, ‘No, for there may not be enough for us and you. Go instead to the merchants and buy some for yourselves.’(Matthew 25:9)
I let go of annoying and manipulative people.
I claim my peace by maintaining my comfortable distance.
10:07 pm
After a long time, I stopped to take a much needed pause. I needed to replenish my depleting spiritual reserves. I looked up my daily bible guide and reflections from Kerygma.com.
Keeping the oil burning.
Let me quote some of the lines of Fr Brian Steele:
We must always be vigilant and keep the oil in our lamp burning. Every one of us has a responsibility to keep our torches (faith) lit with the oil (charity). By our good deeds, we will meet the Lord as soon as He arrives and takes us to Himself. The oil is the charity, the love expressed in faith through our actions. It would be a terrible thing to find at the Lord’s coming the door closed on us. Once locked, it cannot be opened. The great shame is that these women were there all along, waiting. It was because of their unprepared resources that they missed out. If only they had the resources, the joy would have been theirs to celebrate. Fr. Brian Steele, MGL
Just recently, I was tested in these areas. Faith and Charity.
I am so well acquainted with the advice to forgive 70 x 7 times. It means, continue forgiving without counting.
Mother Teresa of Calcutta encourages us to give until it hurts.
This is the part that is quite challenging for me. I was put in a situation where giving was already hurting, Admittedly, I gave grudgingly. Why? The item given away was intended for another purpose. The receiver somehow, did not listen to what I was trying to say when she was claiming it. Besides, I felt, I have already given more than enough. I was in a position of want or dire need and the particular object could have given me some form of lease.
As I reflected on the story of the virgins awaiting the bridegroom...I am once again piqued and quite annoyed, I cannot help compare the unprepared virgins to this person. She wanted to appear so in need of help and support from people around her and me in particular..that was not really the case. She was capable of providing for her needs actually and this thing she could very well afford to buy herself or pay in installment.
But no, she wanted me to share it with her.
She even announced it to many so that I would be in a spot and could not do otherwise.
That is were salt was really rubbed so roughly on my aching charitable bone or spirit. I felt, I already had given enough... and yet, I was arm twisted to give more.
I am just so human to feel a bit annoyed , used and abused.
I end my argument and annoyance with the following lines:
8 The foolish ones said to the wise, ‘Give us some of your oil, for our lamps are going out.’ 9 But the wise ones replied, ‘No, for there may not be enough for us and you. Go instead to the merchants and buy some for yourselves.’(Matthew 25:9)
I let go of annoying and manipulative people.
I claim my peace by maintaining my comfortable distance.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Opulent October 20,2011
Today, I have been a witness again to how sociable and gregarious my first born is. By the way, the younger one is showing similar signs as well.
They both bask in social situations.
They both love to talk.
Marina has new playmates.
They have been practicing the Hawaiian dance we presented in last years UN DAY celebration with CFA.
This year, she is a guest student in the nearby school from Oct. 10- Nov.10.
The teachers are asking that it be extended till December so she can be part of the Christmas festivities.
I am most likely to oblige.
My neighbor asked me if Marina will go to regular/traditional school next year. I am hoping not yet. Maybe when she gets into high school. Besides, I do not like her credentials to come from several schools.
I just need the extra hand now with the new baby taking much of my time and energy.
I am still dead set on providing her with homeschooling.
Anyway, I was so amused to find out that her Rafia grass skirt is quite short now. It is like 3 inches above her ankles..when last year, you could barely glimpse her ankles.
My goodness, she shooting up so much.
She has outgrown most of her clothes now.
Getting ready to keep them for her baby sis.
Thus, today, I am so spent and yet so satisfied, that I have provided Marina with what she requires, enough social interaction and play time.
Seeing her happy makes me so content.
And as for the little one...she lavishes me with so much love and smiles...my heart overflows with joy.
Thank you Lord for the gift of their presence in my life.
I cannot imagine a different lifestyle altogether without them.
Monday, October 17, 2011
FALSE SECURITY
Opulent October 17,2011
FALSE SECURITY
I had the wonderful grace of checking out my Kerygma Bible guide and reflections for today. It reminds me of where I put my faith and trust in.
Do I put my future in stock investments?
Do I entrust it in insurance companies that tout to be stable one moment and fold up the next?
Who ever thought AIG would belly up?
I am still not sure whether my educational plan for my daughter will still be redeemable by the time she enters college. You see, PHILAM is no longer existing in it’s original name. Who guarantees payment when the time comes?
I was quite perplexed for a time.
Quite anxious to say the least.
But, today, my Lord and my Saviour reminds me to trust HIM, To have FAITH in him.
Thank you Lord.
You are the way, the truth and the LIFE.
I surrender everything to you. My plans, my hopes and my wishes...the future belongs to you. My life is in your hands. Guide me and guard me and all my family and friends.
FALSE SECURITY
I had the wonderful grace of checking out my Kerygma Bible guide and reflections for today. It reminds me of where I put my faith and trust in.
Do I put my future in stock investments?
Do I entrust it in insurance companies that tout to be stable one moment and fold up the next?
Who ever thought AIG would belly up?
I am still not sure whether my educational plan for my daughter will still be redeemable by the time she enters college. You see, PHILAM is no longer existing in it’s original name. Who guarantees payment when the time comes?
I was quite perplexed for a time.
Quite anxious to say the least.
But, today, my Lord and my Saviour reminds me to trust HIM, To have FAITH in him.
Thank you Lord.
You are the way, the truth and the LIFE.
I surrender everything to you. My plans, my hopes and my wishes...the future belongs to you. My life is in your hands. Guide me and guard me and all my family and friends.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Opulent October 16,2011
Oh wow!
I cannot seem to find a positive adjective for this month starting with the letter O.
Hmmm....
Spending time with my hubby on YAHOO MESSENGER.
Little LILLI just turned over her tummy.
She is trying to catch my attention while I pretend I do not notice her.
She is trying to make several sounds. Keeps looking at me. One more look...my heart will surely melt...and will leave this for a while.
Hmmm...
She has rested her head temporarily.
Ok...so...what shall be my theme for October?
Octoberfest 2011??
Sounds like beer festival.
Hmmm...
maybe nah...never enjoyed beer and never will perhaps.
Opulent?
Hmmm...not in the same vicinity.
Not at all...
Would I want to be opulent?
Hmmm...
Lemme think more about that.
So...
It is almost half of the month and I have been so lacking in PEACE, HARMONY AND JOY.
Why?
Maybe I have allowed myself to be overwhelmed with the things I need to do. Forgetting the most basic...and that is myself. To rest when the baby sleeps. To do the first priorities and that is my two girls.
Unfortunately, these days, my first born has been acting up.
She has demanded a lot of time and attention.
Maybe perhaps, I have been too remiss in this aspect. Oh yes, we have our 2 hour homeschooling...but, we need to laugh more...I need to comb her hair more...it calms her.
She at times, brings the comb to me when I forget.
Now, I really know how siblings can start to have animosity for one another...If the parent is not careful enough to provide the one on one time each child requires.
But, what to do, when the energy department is closed for replenishment.
Hmmm...
I believe, I claim, my writing will lead me to my center once again.
I just need to keep at it.
Never to park my pen.
Or, should I say, click on my keyboards more.
I just checked the thesaurus.
I initially had a negative impression of the word opulent...since it may mean excesses...extravagance...or lavishness...
But, it can also mean, abundance, richness, fullness, prosperous, exhuberance...plentiful.
So, yes, I want my October Opulent...and so it shall be.
Not, pretentious...just positive reinforcement.
Not imaginary...envisioning.
And this it shall be.
I cannot seem to find a positive adjective for this month starting with the letter O.
Hmmm....
Spending time with my hubby on YAHOO MESSENGER.
Little LILLI just turned over her tummy.
She is trying to catch my attention while I pretend I do not notice her.
She is trying to make several sounds. Keeps looking at me. One more look...my heart will surely melt...and will leave this for a while.
Hmmm...
She has rested her head temporarily.
Ok...so...what shall be my theme for October?
Octoberfest 2011??
Sounds like beer festival.
Hmmm...
maybe nah...never enjoyed beer and never will perhaps.
Opulent?
Hmmm...not in the same vicinity.
Not at all...
Would I want to be opulent?
Hmmm...
Lemme think more about that.
So...
It is almost half of the month and I have been so lacking in PEACE, HARMONY AND JOY.
Why?
Maybe I have allowed myself to be overwhelmed with the things I need to do. Forgetting the most basic...and that is myself. To rest when the baby sleeps. To do the first priorities and that is my two girls.
Unfortunately, these days, my first born has been acting up.
She has demanded a lot of time and attention.
Maybe perhaps, I have been too remiss in this aspect. Oh yes, we have our 2 hour homeschooling...but, we need to laugh more...I need to comb her hair more...it calms her.
She at times, brings the comb to me when I forget.
Now, I really know how siblings can start to have animosity for one another...If the parent is not careful enough to provide the one on one time each child requires.
But, what to do, when the energy department is closed for replenishment.
Hmmm...
I believe, I claim, my writing will lead me to my center once again.
I just need to keep at it.
Never to park my pen.
Or, should I say, click on my keyboards more.
I just checked the thesaurus.
I initially had a negative impression of the word opulent...since it may mean excesses...extravagance...or lavishness...
But, it can also mean, abundance, richness, fullness, prosperous, exhuberance...plentiful.
So, yes, I want my October Opulent...and so it shall be.
Not, pretentious...just positive reinforcement.
Not imaginary...envisioning.
And this it shall be.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
42 in the Girth
Sweet September 7, 2011
I am typing this entry with just my right hand. My left hand is holding my just 3 month old baby while she doses off to sleep. The past 2 days saw her having very short sleep and more awake time. She easily gets startled.
She loves to be propped up in her horse shoe shaped pillow that also looks like a big tooth when she slides down it. Big sister and I call it MAGNETIC PILLOW.
She loves to have her baby chatter with us. Lots of cooing and giggling. And we have caught her several times making two syllable sounds like, yes, MAMA, A-YAW,A-KU!
Her big sister said AB-BA, BA-BA, DA-DA all in one breath at 4 months old. Making me think I have another chatter box in our midst.
The flip side to the coin to her day time light sleeping is her all nighter sleep. Whew ! what a relief! At least I am able to recover a little bit of lost sleep.
Big thanks to the Chamomile and Lavender Calming lotion that I have just introduced to our bed time ritual massage.
I just got the nerve to get the tape measure and find out what the mirror has long been screaming. Yes! It is a heart breaking number. I no longer think of the coke in can figure. NO! It is more like the Buddha which is not smiling. An Avocado. A pear.Hmph! And Selma Blair just flaunted her wow figure at the Venice Film Festival after only several weeks of delivering her baby and I am like...3 months now?
Ummmmmm.....ummmmmmmmm...
I will be calm and cool not bothered nor perplexed.
I promise to get to my target in my own KAIROS not in the CHRONOS of other people...besides not all people are the same .Not all people get to 42 inches in the girth the same way.
I am typing this entry with just my right hand. My left hand is holding my just 3 month old baby while she doses off to sleep. The past 2 days saw her having very short sleep and more awake time. She easily gets startled.
She loves to be propped up in her horse shoe shaped pillow that also looks like a big tooth when she slides down it. Big sister and I call it MAGNETIC PILLOW.
She loves to have her baby chatter with us. Lots of cooing and giggling. And we have caught her several times making two syllable sounds like, yes, MAMA, A-YAW,A-KU!
Her big sister said AB-BA, BA-BA, DA-DA all in one breath at 4 months old. Making me think I have another chatter box in our midst.
The flip side to the coin to her day time light sleeping is her all nighter sleep. Whew ! what a relief! At least I am able to recover a little bit of lost sleep.
Big thanks to the Chamomile and Lavender Calming lotion that I have just introduced to our bed time ritual massage.
I just got the nerve to get the tape measure and find out what the mirror has long been screaming. Yes! It is a heart breaking number. I no longer think of the coke in can figure. NO! It is more like the Buddha which is not smiling. An Avocado. A pear.Hmph! And Selma Blair just flaunted her wow figure at the Venice Film Festival after only several weeks of delivering her baby and I am like...3 months now?
Ummmmmm.....ummmmmmmmm...
I will be calm and cool not bothered nor perplexed.
I promise to get to my target in my own KAIROS not in the CHRONOS of other people...besides not all people are the same .Not all people get to 42 inches in the girth the same way.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
August 23
Awesome August 23
I started the day quite early despite the fact that I had to get up 3x for LILLI’s feeding and a 4th time for Marina who had to run to the bathroom due to a bum stomach.
I guess, I am so psyched to achieve my goal this month end till the next month.
Yeah.
Go! Go! Go!
Today, I pushed myself to my limits despite the attention my back was calling for.
Despite the sharp claw like pain in my CS wound....I still went ahead doing my TO DO list...trying not to complain one bit.
Just last Friday, it still trickled some spotting. Hmmm.
Nah, I will just hold on to what my OB said, it has healed well and the ULTRASOUND test was all ok 2 Fridays ago.
........
I want to talk about the good ole MANZANILLA. I just recently discovered that it is not only good for baby’s gas/colic discomfort. Since it has Chamomile and Citronella, It is perfect for repelling mosquietos.
Good heavens! Dengue is back with a vengeance.
During my last Pedia visit, I asked Dr. Gonzales if it is ok to use OFF LOTION on LILLI’s soft delicate skin. He said no. Unfortunately he did not offer any other alternatives. Good thing to internet sleuthing, I discovered that my dependable MANZANILLA is the best alternative.
.......
This morning, before test driving again our baby carrier, I tried offering LILLI my boobs again. Hmmm....she refused it.
I hope and pray to be able to restore back mixed feeding. Please Lady of La Leche, pray for my petition.
I still want to breastfeed her and am desirous to breastfeed her more in the coming months.
But, ever since, I got so preoccupied with something else last July 16...our nursing time has been so much interrupted.
......
Similac HW and Similac PLUS from Abbott.
I wished to have introduced to my daughter what MARINA was taking before which is the Frisolac, Frisomel series by Mead Johnson. Unfortunately it is no longer in the market.
Thus, I had to make do with what the Pedia in the hospital prescribed.
My initial experiences...
The milk burp is super awful. It smells like Piattos cheese flavour.
Then LILLI developed terrible colic so I switched her to the HW of the Whey protein one. She really ballooned in less than a month of use...Feeding schedule was narrowed down from 3 hours to 2 then 1.5 to 1 hour interval.
Then she developed colic again.
I was seriously considering shifting her to the Lactose free.
Then, I noticed something odd in the texture of the milk granules especially after I saw that unconsumed milk exhibited something weird in less than an hour. The liquid separated to the bottom and milk-like substance floated on top.
It was somewhat curdling like...as if the process of turning into cheese has already been initiated.
Abbott sent a representative to replace 2 480 gram cans at once.
Till now, they cannot explain to me the phenomenon and why the granules are not consistent. In one can, it is yellowish and very fine powder. In others it is almost grey like white and coarse granules.
The new gold color packaging of the HW can, ushered in new experiences.
Initially the white HW can was a pleasant change why? Because, my daughter did not burp out milk so much and it did not have any smell at all. Unfortunately with the HW gold can....we are back to an awful smell. Likened to that of an old aparador with musty odour.
Terrible.
That is why I really am so dead set to bringing back the breast friends experiences.
Lord, bless me.
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I started the day quite early despite the fact that I had to get up 3x for LILLI’s feeding and a 4th time for Marina who had to run to the bathroom due to a bum stomach.
I guess, I am so psyched to achieve my goal this month end till the next month.
Yeah.
Go! Go! Go!
Today, I pushed myself to my limits despite the attention my back was calling for.
Despite the sharp claw like pain in my CS wound....I still went ahead doing my TO DO list...trying not to complain one bit.
Just last Friday, it still trickled some spotting. Hmmm.
Nah, I will just hold on to what my OB said, it has healed well and the ULTRASOUND test was all ok 2 Fridays ago.
........
I want to talk about the good ole MANZANILLA. I just recently discovered that it is not only good for baby’s gas/colic discomfort. Since it has Chamomile and Citronella, It is perfect for repelling mosquietos.
Good heavens! Dengue is back with a vengeance.
During my last Pedia visit, I asked Dr. Gonzales if it is ok to use OFF LOTION on LILLI’s soft delicate skin. He said no. Unfortunately he did not offer any other alternatives. Good thing to internet sleuthing, I discovered that my dependable MANZANILLA is the best alternative.
.......
This morning, before test driving again our baby carrier, I tried offering LILLI my boobs again. Hmmm....she refused it.
I hope and pray to be able to restore back mixed feeding. Please Lady of La Leche, pray for my petition.
I still want to breastfeed her and am desirous to breastfeed her more in the coming months.
But, ever since, I got so preoccupied with something else last July 16...our nursing time has been so much interrupted.
......
Similac HW and Similac PLUS from Abbott.
I wished to have introduced to my daughter what MARINA was taking before which is the Frisolac, Frisomel series by Mead Johnson. Unfortunately it is no longer in the market.
Thus, I had to make do with what the Pedia in the hospital prescribed.
My initial experiences...
The milk burp is super awful. It smells like Piattos cheese flavour.
Then LILLI developed terrible colic so I switched her to the HW of the Whey protein one. She really ballooned in less than a month of use...Feeding schedule was narrowed down from 3 hours to 2 then 1.5 to 1 hour interval.
Then she developed colic again.
I was seriously considering shifting her to the Lactose free.
Then, I noticed something odd in the texture of the milk granules especially after I saw that unconsumed milk exhibited something weird in less than an hour. The liquid separated to the bottom and milk-like substance floated on top.
It was somewhat curdling like...as if the process of turning into cheese has already been initiated.
Abbott sent a representative to replace 2 480 gram cans at once.
Till now, they cannot explain to me the phenomenon and why the granules are not consistent. In one can, it is yellowish and very fine powder. In others it is almost grey like white and coarse granules.
The new gold color packaging of the HW can, ushered in new experiences.
Initially the white HW can was a pleasant change why? Because, my daughter did not burp out milk so much and it did not have any smell at all. Unfortunately with the HW gold can....we are back to an awful smell. Likened to that of an old aparador with musty odour.
Terrible.
That is why I really am so dead set to bringing back the breast friends experiences.
Lord, bless me.
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