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Thursday, September 29, 2022

DUPLICITY

 

Sept 29 2022

8:39am CT

 

Come Oh Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of the faithful, enkindle in us the fire of your Divine Love Oh Lord Jesus, and my mind, body, brains, heart and soul will be renewed as well as the face of the earth.

 

Jesus, King of Divine Mercy, I put my TRUST and CONFIDENCE in you.

Mary, Mother of God the Son, Spouse of the Holy Spirit, I consecrate my life to you, help me every step of the way.

St. Joseph, pray for us.

St. Padre Pio, help us achieve great health and vitality of mind and body, in Jesus mighty name.

 

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Reflection question for the gospel readings for today:  What do you think Jesus will say if you meet today? Similarly, what He said of Nathaneal in John 1:48 “Nathanael said to him, “How do you know me?” Jesus answered and said to him, “Before Philip called you, I saw you under the fig tree.” – John 1:48

 

Here is another reflection question I encountered  yesterday for today’s readings:

 

How does the Devil deceive me with his lies and cunning ways? When have I experienced the power of the Archangels in my life? How has the effect of sin left me wounded, broken, and disintegrated?

 

 

These are very interesting questions. It would be very interesting to put out my words publicly today.

 

I had the inspiration to record the gospel readings, gospel reflections and do my blog as I reflect in real time.

 

Perhaps, let me go the winding way first.

 

DUPLICITY.

 

In today’s gospel, Jesus declared that there was no duplicity with Nathaneal. 

 

I was called  a HYPOCRITE  two years ago during lent.

 

In high school, there was a play I figured in and my character was Binibining Ipocrita.

 

It was a tough label to work from.

 

The stickiness of the whole name calling is quite challenging to extricate from…it leads you down  a dark pit.

 

I rise from the ashes today.

 

I dust myself off.

 

I put on new clothing that reminds me of my  authentic self, rooted on the fact that my God is a great, almighty King, whose only Son, died for my sins, washed me clean and ransomed my life for His will and purpose.

 

I THANK that person, let us call him D, for this learning experience, I  say SORRY  to him and to myself for this ugly situation to have happened, I ask FORGIVENESS from him and myself for allowing this  to hurt, break and poison other events and situations, with the LOVE AND MERCY of CHRIST JESUS, I send out HIS LIGHT AND LOVE to D and me, and  everything that is connected to us and this situation, allowing and thanking GOD to shine HIS DIVINE LIGHT AND LOVE on it, now and always.


Moving forward, I just need to please God above all else, and love others as I love myself.


Learning to self care and love myself healthily first and remind myself that...


I do not have to please everybody else.

 

I do not need to dance to other people’s expectations of me to please them.

 

I just need to be clear of my values and beliefs as they are founded in my faith in my Lord Jesus Christ.

 

And when I do meet my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, He will say, good and faithful servant and soldier…You did the best that you could given what you have.

 

Despite your limitations and struggles, you went after my heart and in it you found the healing you desperately needed to be the best version of yourself a step at a time.

 

I am whole.

 

I am completely and totally healed by your most precious body and blood , Oh Jesus.

 

I am strong in God’s graces and blessings for me each and every moment of my life.

 

Thank you Lord.

 

Thank you.

 

Mary, Queen of all the Holy Angels, hold my hand.

 

Ave Maria!


https://youtu.be/q4_IqkQHmOY

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Wednesday, September 28, 2022

LITANY OF HUMILITY

 


Sept.28,2022

10:58 CT


I am ready to go back into my FB Social Media FAST.  As a form of goodbye, I recorded the LITANY OF HUMILITY, something that can CURB my tendency to go for the DOPAMINE RUSH of the LIKES.


A very challenging addictive tendency.


This will also be a form of THANK YOU for all those who took the time and effort to greet me for  my birthday. It has warmed my heart so much, something that will help me face the coming winter.


Here is the recording . Thank you. God bless.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5EH3C1vUbfw&ab_channel=GoingVananas





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Monday, September 26, 2022

53 Birthday THANKSGIVINGS

 

September 24,2022

10pm

 

 

My  53rd  birthday  celebration started at 7am of  yesterday.

 

A devotional time with my siblings online was engaged into with a bit of tentativeness. Internet was unstable for one or two, but, the hiccups didn’t hinder us from going through with it.

 

Sibling #2 was able to join us post devotion.

 

If she didn’t remind me, I would have totally mixed it up with another date and time. Praise God I was able to get her notice in just the nick of time.

 

An online appointment at 5pm  with Elvira Acapulco of Usana was just another breath of fresh air that I needed to boost my waning spirits and body, tired from the years of faking it, till I make it.

 

Authenticity is not cheap, nor is it a welcome commodity in an otherwise unforgiving world of unrealistic expectations and dashed hopes.

 

Hubby came home with some Chinese take out from our favorite North Garden in University Crescent. Was not inclined to cook since I am still recovering from a flu bout that got me down for 3 days last week.

 



Our pumpkins, care of some wonderful friends,  had to wait a bit more for the 4 ideas  2nd born and I had in mind for it.

 

The full stomach and tiredness was enough for me to be sluggish yet wide awake at 9pm.

 

I suggested to the girls that we watch the Home Sweet Home Alone movie latest version.

 

Before half way mark of the movie, I got a call from my dear sister in the community announcing a “ something”  to be dropped off.  She lives nearby and we get to receive a lot of stuff  from her every now and then for the past two years, especially food stuff that not only warms the belly, but the heart as well more importantly.

 

She reminds me so much of my sibling #5.

 

As we were almost done with the call,  hubby receives a call from another sister in the prayer community…sounds like they were going to drop off something as well.

 

This got me into autopilot  mode and tried to put order and pick up the otherwise Friday frazzled look of the house, that forgot to be a  magazine cover home.

 

In 10 minutes, I was ushering  Cely and Albert from the  2nd day of Autumn 11pm night cold- crisp air in my thin  red blouse into our downstairs lobby, to the elevator, into our  “eclectic, practically furnished “ apartment of two years and 5 months.

 

Then, after they had hot tea drinks in hand,  Teena, Marlon and Marie came bearing more gifts of food and  a lovely  white with pink blush orchid plant and  yummy pancit and garlic giant soft pretzels. Brother William followed after a while.






 

The girls kept raving about how good the pretzels were, while  I have been enjoying  the pancit till today and relish the view of the flowers  on our  altar.

 


 

Sept 25,2022

12:07pm

 

 

 I abandoned my writing last night and gave in to distractions in the internet. My 2nd born Ana Marcelina a.k.a. Lilli kept asking me to sleep with her.

 

I gave in after 3 or more nudging.

 

First born, Victoria Marina or Mari is off to do some driving practice with dear Jane, my friendly 72 year old neighbor who has decided to make us family.

 

She prepared bagels and 2 different cheese spread and eggs for breakfast before she left.

 

Ruel  cooked  scrambled eggs with lots of yellow and red tomatoes ( courtesy of the generosity of some friends and office mate’s garden harvests.)

 

Yum!

 

After some other tasks, here I am trying to resurrect my blogging/writing pursuits… which was my armchair mental health therapy of long ago.

 

It worked once…I am sure, it will work it’s magic again.

 

So,  I am  now basking in the love and care certain friends and family showed me for my birthday.

 

I will do a thanksgiving list t now without the initially planned blow by blow timeline:

 

1.      Jane, she baked me a very heavenly delicious German Chocolate cake with toppings of pecan, coconut and 3 purple candles. She asked Mari to put a dollap of Hagen Daz vanilla icecream in each slice ( which I had to beg off from).





2.      She  then gave me this wonderful card that says this:

 

 



3.      After reading , I opened a beautifully wrapped small box that contained a sleek white 2 plastic blade miniature fan, very good for the hot flashes that comes with a deadly surprise now and then.

4.      A silver shiny wrapped box came next, floating candles!

5.      Jane then asked Mari to get something from the bedrooms, and a wow glass jar was presented to me with lovely green butterfly candles ( which matched my blouse c/o Mari) and 3 yellow wooden shavings flowers.  Beautiful!!! Guess, finally, I will treat myself with a bubble bath with these floating candles keeping me company! Good idea?




6.      Wrapped myself with a grey Ikea throw blanket from Celedonia. 

7.      Reaching for Mari and Lilli’s gift bag….another TREASURE found, a lovely book by LM Montgomery from a dreamy place already on the top of our bucket list. 

8.      Lilli read the post-word about this classic book and Jane exclaimed, this looks like those Victorian parlor room reading sessions….and we delighted ourselves in the moment.

9.      4pm-530 pm saw us in the loving care and generosity of Father Ani of Holy Cross parish. He treated us to another amazing experience. After the 4pm mass where he asked our family to do the offertory and showered us with holy water, he invited us and another couple to join an Eritrean family and friends in festivities for the baptism celebration of their first born daughter.  The food and the dancing was such a novelty.  We teased Marina over something that made her get tickled pink during this whole interesting experience.

10.   Their traditional costume and music and food was such a wonderful unique and curious attraction.  

11.   8am CT-12 noon,   a handful of high school classmates and I started our mini reunion  with bible reading on Sept 24, 2022 gospel readings and our very own Father Tim gave us his thoughts. Then we proceeded to share our own thoughts and thanksgiving.  Claire from Ireland joined us  around 9am already. We got to share our struggles and triumphs  while we remembered those classmates who passed on and those who are challenged with health issues in prayer. Looking forward to another chance to meditate on God’s word with them  again soon. 





 


 


Praise God, the lack of sleep and head ache was manageable with  2 power naps.

 

 I will end this journal entry, this documentation of the love received for my birthday from people around me ( physically and virtually)  who made an extra effort to greet me in their own love languages with this recording as taken from a message from dear friend Ally, who is based in New Zealand and was one of the first to greet me in advance.


 https://youtu.be/HUcYPWrqpjM

https://youtu.be/UHfetzBzkvI

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzPMFSoIu1Q&ab_channel=GoingVananas



 

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